This week has been full of emotions... I don't know how much more I can handle. My heart has been hurt in many ways in just a couple days... from anger, to sadness, to grief, to pure happiness, to complete emptiness and confusion. I have never experienced anything like this before... I've had to say good-byes to many friends and family members... I also had to say the saddest kind of good-bye to one of the greatest men that I ever knew: my grandpa. Today at 2:47, he took his last breathe and is now walking with Jesus. As great as that sounds, I can't help but hurt so so much. I won't be able to go to the celebration of his life this coming Monday due to the fact that my journey in Korea begins on Sunday. How do I deal with this??? I want to badly to go through the full stages of grief, but I'm going to be going through it on my own in a different place.
As this weekend approaches, I can't help but wonder how it is going to go... I am wanting to celebrate with my family and say good-bye to them, but how do i do that when my heart is completely shattered. Prayers would be extremely helpful at this point in time...
I know that God is going to see me through this, but right now it is hard to see the light at the end...
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